dear,over thinker.

"The more you try,the more it's hard to get."
Sometimes I believe in this statement. No matter how hard you try,no matter how big is your effort,if it's not what meant to be,then it's not. You will not always get what you want. Even when you give all of your strength,all you can give,or all you can bare,you're not always getting there. It hurts,but that the truth. For some people,doing something is as easy as flipping their hands. But maybe for me,it is as hard as flipping the whole sky. Impossible to do and will never happen to me. I used to believe that there's nothing impossible in this world. Indeed. But sometimes,it just will not coming to you. Or simply,you won't always get what you desire. Especially what you desire the most.
Something that blurry and hard to keep is so much challenging. And oddly,doing this kind of
things that bad for me or just not good enough for me is so much fun. Testing my limit and facing the hurricane sometimes makes me keep alive. I know sometimes I feel tired and I want to stop every thing so it won't hurt. But once I go for something,I have to finish it. And I don't like when I have such undone business. I know that it's so confusing. Life could be more complicated when you thin about it the most. And I really want to get away from all of these feelings but when I have nothing to think I feel empty and numb. So I keep making a new problem to discuss inside my head,think and rethink,find the solution,or maybe just getting frustrated because of that.
I should yelling to my self, "I COULD STOP THIS." I have this ability to start or finish something,so just do it. When I feel so overburden because something I should just say. "Okay,I could handle this but if I can't so I just need to let it go."
That's the simple key of living happily.
Just don't think about it too much. Sometimes,something that seems so big inside your head won't affect anything in your life,so don't stress your self,just let it flow.

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